Where Has the Time Gone?

It's officially been 3 years since I began this blog. I think I already said this last year in my first blog post of the year but, I cannot believe I have kept up with this silly little blog. My posts don't get too much engagement anymore but as I have stated from the start: this blog is for me. Of course I hope I can reach the few readers I have and connect with you all. I know from the few who have reached out over the past 3 years that I have connected with some and those messages always make my day. But this blog was always intended to be like a photo album. Something I can look back on in the years to come to reflect on the seasons I've been through and how I felt in all of them. I love getting to post monthly updates or rambles or advice. Someday in the next 7 years I'll talk about turning 21, getting engaged, maybe married or having kids... I especially cannot wait to write more about my travels.

2023. This year holds so much excitement, hope, fear, and promise for me. This year I turn 21. I still remember being in high school thinking about how my 21st birthday is forvever away. Well time flies and the big birthday is fast approaching. That scares the hell out of me. What scares me even more is the fact that I'll be graduating in May. All I've ever known is school. I thought I hated it so much that I should push to graduate a year early. Now here I am one semester away from walking across that stage and all I'm left thinking is that I need to take it all in. I need to savor it. It feels like just yesterday that I was graduating high school. That may be because covid took away half of my college experience, but also the fact that I am graduating in just 3 short years. I feel just as sentimental about this chapter in my life coming to a close as I did when I graduated high school. This year holds so much hope for me. As my earliest readers know, covid ruined so many of my travel plans in the past. This year I can continue to pursue my travel dreams. This is where the fear creeps back in. I've decided to book a one way ticket to Europe after I graduate. I know I do not want to pursue Graduate school at the moment and I am not ready to join corporate america or whatever. I want to travel, and have fun, and create content. I want to do what I love most.

2022 was a wonderful year. I did so much and learned so much. I was finally able to visit Thailand and fulfill so many dreams I have had. I started prioritizing myself and protecting my peace. I will be taking some of these things with me into 2023.

I'm going to list out some of my visions for this new year:

1. Turn 21 and celebrate hard!!!

2. Graduate from Cal Lu and be surrounded by loved ones.

3. Book a one way flight to Europe and see where it takes me. I want to fall in love with the world.

4. Continue my self care, gym routine, and protecting my peace!

5. Trust that everything works out exactly as it should and that I am so lucky to have everything work out this way.

6. Enjoy the big moments that will happen, but also take in the little ones.

7. Work hard to achieve my goals. My fear of looking stupid will only hold me back.

8. Practice gratitude.

9. Be more open: to new opportunities, new people, and new places.

Life keeps happening and I cannot keep the world from turning no matter how much I want time to slow down. As a kid I used to think time moved so slow. I wanted to grow up so badly. Now as I am older time keep moving faster and faster and I wish nothing more than to be able to go back and be a kid a little longer. If I could tell my younger self to enjoy being kid more and to soak it in I would because this year I am expected to become an adult. And that scares the shit out of me. But it's okay because 2023 will be another great year. It will be my year!!! Here's to many more memories, journeys, and years to come! Thanks to everyone who has stuck around the past 3 years<3 I'm forever grateful for the support.