What a Weird Year.

2025 truly felt like multiple years wrapped up in one. Or as if I lived multiple lives. I don't know if that is a good or bad thing as it definitely had its ups and downs. Every year I reflect and say there were ups and downs but boy did this year drag me in a way that could only fortify me.

Let's begin with the fact that in January I took one of the biggest risks I've ever taken to land a job that has now made me more money than I've seen before. Is it my dream job? No. But it gifted me life long friends and the means to transform my frugal lifestyle from previous years.

I also started this year off as a loyal loving girlfriend. But this year really nailed down the concept that a woman's intuition is never wrong for me. January I had been planning on moving to where my significant other lived and been nailing down interviews for jobs out there. By June I would've lived across the state. But God had other plans. Or rather He was about to show me how He had to destroy my plans before my plans would've destroyed me. So before February was over I was single once again.

I spent months healing and starting to move on. I connected with many people on this journey through my TikTok content and helped others start to heal too. Then I went on my second round of an "Eat, Pray, Love" journey as we remember I did this back in 2023 after my last breakup. I spent 6 weeks backpacking around Europe with my friend Kennedy again. And man, this trip taught me so much about our friendship and the strength of it. It's like all of a sudden she became a sister to me. We fought like sisters and made up like sisters as well. This trip brought us so much closer. It was also another trip for the books with over 10 countries visited (my favorites being Netherlands, Poland, and Greece).

When I came back I connected with someone. A boy who made me feel seen for once. Quite literally the boy version of me. He noticed the little things and had consideration for me. I've always wanted to be loved the way I love and for the first time I felt like I got close to that. He knew how to read me like a book, be gentle with me, and make me feel valued. One of my favorite memories was of him gently tucking my hair behind my ear, being extra mindful of my piercings, because he didn't want to hurt me. Well in the end we still hurt each other. We both knew it would eventually end. After countless hours of quality time, me going to his softball games, him building me my furniture and driving me to the airport. It's like history began to repeat itself 5 years later and found myself back in a soul crushing situationship.

This time I walked away. I would've given forever to this person, but God has other plans again. He is asking me to trust them. If this year has taught me anything its that I should trust in His plan and timing. I continue to remind myself that if this person who ticked almost every single box for me exists then there is someone else out there who will also tick those same boxes and if He is delivered by God then he will tick all my boxes.

This year my heart went through what would usually break a person down. Most don't recover from heartbreak within a year and start dating again but the lover girl in me just wants to find my person so bad. And I didn't break down. If anything I became fortified and realized that 2026 won't be for the same mistakes. I choose to lock away my heart now and pour into my own cup. It's time I start to protect the lover girl in me and save her for my husband. 2026 is personal. This year will be for personal growth and transformation in the gym, my mental health, career, investments and travels. One year from now I'm excited to see where I end up.