There is No Good Side to a Breakup

To preface this post only really relates to relatively healthy relationships, not toxic ones.

I used to believe that there was an easy and difficult or good and bad side to a breakup. Like the one doing the breaking up had it easy or good and the one being broken up with had it hard or bad. I was wrong. Both sides are heartbreaking.

Obviously being broken up with is horrible. You feel empty inside and refuse to eat for days. You cry and cry until you can't anymore. But doing the breaking up... a whole different story. You struggle with the idea of making a mistake. Will it be a mistake? Will you miss them and wish you had never said anything? Then you struggle with the fact of caring for them and not wanting to hurt them. Obviously you don't want to break their heart and be the source of so much pain. How will they handle it? Will they go too far with the hurt? Will this be the last time you talk to your bestfriend? You also don't want to lose your bestfriend in general. You can wish all you want that you could go back to the friendship stage but you can't really. It'll never be the same if you're even lucky enough for them to want to remain friends. But what if you miss the single life? Or want your person but it is not the right timing for the two of you? So must you sacrifice what could bring greater happiness? That's why being the one to do the heart breaking can be it's own hell. Just like being heartbroken is its own personal hell. There is no good side to a breakup.