My Heart is Not Mine, it is Scattered Across the World

By the time you all will be reading this I will be in Thailand. I have dreamt of traveling across Thailand for years now and even had this trip booked after graduating high school but unfortunately as we all know it got cancelled.

A few months ago I started looking into trips I could take this summer and none of the ideas were either feasible or exciting enough to make me jump for it.

Then one night I was on facetime with my bestfriend McKayla and we decided to impulsively take a trip to Thailand. We spent nearly all of our money and definitely had some anxious moments of disbelief but also fear.

But this was the trip that made me feel alive. I started daydreaming about this trip and was truly excited. So we made the plans. Booked everything. Packed and caught a flight.

I have noticed almost every time I travel I find myself wishing I could move to whichever place I am at. The beauty of this world is astounding and I find myself wanting to own a little bit of everywhere I go. Every trip I leave a little bit sad because I wish I could stay in the surreal moments forever. I wish I would never have to leave.

It is almost like I leave a little piece of my heart behind every place I fall in love with.

I left a piece of my heart in Europe, in St. Maarten, in New York, in Florida, and even in Texas.

Thinking about leaving a place gives me a sense of anxiety and sadness that I may not see it again, or that I may miss out on the feelings of belonging I find in the comfort of the beauty.

Maybe this is why I leave a little bit of my heart in each beautiful place I travel to. It will keep me coming back to reunite with my soul. To feel complete again in these places.

We will see if Thailand becomes one of these places to take ownership over a piece of my heart. I have a feeling it will<3