my best friend, my lover, my family

Six days ago it was officially our one year anniversary. In honor of that, this post is for you Noah.

I think it's pretty rare to find your bestfriend in your boyfriend. I've always heard that if you do though, you should keep him. We sure have had our ups and downs. Some high highs but some real low lows. We have had our moments where we were going to call it quits. But over the last year you have become my bestfriend. So when we are on the verge of calling it quits, all I can ever think about is how I wouldn't be able to see my bestfriend the next day. Losing a boyfriend is hard, but I think losing a bestfriend is harder. Losing both in one person would be like death. I can't be without you. Constantly making memeories together leads me to want to hang out everyday with you. There is no one I would rather drive an hour to Van Nuys with to get street tacos. No one I would rather travel with. No one I would rather have endless sleepovers with.

Over the past year you have become my lover. I trust you completely. You don't always get me the way I wish you would, but I can be comfortable around you in ways I can't with others. You're goofy and kind and caring. Sometimes I wonder how I found the nicest person ever to be my boyfriend. There's no one I'd rather turn into a rom-com lover with me. There's no one I'd rather lay in bed all day with. There's no one I would rather live life with.

You feel like home. When I am with you I feel safe. When my emotions are all over the place the only way I can calm down is by being in your arms. You are my family. Ily<3