Finding my Lust for Life Again

Recently I've been having lots of breakthroughs in life. It's not really any secret that the past couple years have been rough for me, just like for many others. But lately I feel like I have finally started to grow and change and become a better person.

In the past, if I've been wronged by someone I let that hate eat away at me. Now though, I have realized that people who are trying to tear me down and start drama or spread rumors are really just pathetic in reality. They obviously have nothing better to do in life than try to bring people down.

Having this breakthrough has worked wonders for my mental health. I see these unfortunate circumstances as challenges now, not the end of the world. Things are not always going to be good in life, but really these are just challenges to help us grow and become stronger. It's God's way of saying "Hey do you want to go to the next level of life? It gets really good after this. You just have to complete this challenge." These challenges prepare us for a better future. I think I conditioned myself to expect bad stuff to keep happening to me because I gave too much importance to the bad in my life.

I identified my life as an emotional rollercoaster.

In reality, there is always some good going on in life, if not a lot of good, but I would let the bad be the end of my world and cloud out all the great things going on in my life. Now I am trying to see the good in the bad.

I feel like I am putting my life back on track again. And even though the future is uncertain I am excited to finally feel passionate about my interests again. I am finding my lust for life again. I am doing what I want to do again. I am growing up and it's scary as FUCK but also exciting as FUCK. Inspiration is flowing through me again and my lust for life is growing again. A quote that opened my eyes to all of this is:

"If it costs you your peace, it's too expensive"

Realizing that a lot of things in my life have cost me my peace have helped me see my future much more clearly. I am finally putting me first. I am practicing self reflection. I am practicing how to be a good leader. I am practicing self-love. I am practicing how to be a good communicator. And I am running at my obstacles or challenges head on instead of running away.

From here it should get really good.