Filling my own cup

I talk about seasons of change often. Maybe because life over the past year cannot seem to stop changing. But I must remind myself that I created this blog over 4 years ago to document for myself all of life's changes over the course of a decade. So although it may get annoying, I will continue to do this for myself.

Do you ever wake up one day and realize that you jumped into a whole new season of life? A new season with new plot lines, characters, and settings. I realized yesterday that I have completely different friends now than I did a year ago. I am meeting so many new people constantly and running around in new areas. New experiences keep coming across my path and new plot lines that I could've never imagined as an 18 year old are happening. It is crazy what the universe will do for you when you finally ask for your wildest dreams and trust.

Four years ago I was a completely different person. Four years from now I will be completely different. That is the beauty of this digital diary. I would like to mention here for myself that I came home to myself this past year. I remember being so afraid to leave my past relationship because I was afraid I wouldn't have any friends on the other side and that I'd be alone. But when the universe closes one door, it opens so many more. So as I went along my healing journey, I met so many amazing women who I have become super close to. Women who support me from all around the world. My time spent last month in Costa Rica was especially beautiful because it truly healed my inner child and created so many bonds. So this past year I came home to myself again. I remembered how much I love to socialize and be out in nightlife. I remembered how much I love to stay active and also be creative. I remembered how much I cherish a girls night.

And it is interesting how as soon as someone's chapter in your life is over you will no longer run into them even if you live in the same small town. The Universe knows their time in your life is up. And as I move on and enter this new chapter in my life I can't help but be grateful for everything this last chapter taught me. I am now learning very quickly where my standards should've been this whole time, both in friendships and relationships. I am also learning who deserves a seat at my table. As I start a new journey this month I have noticed who is here supporting me. I also see who silently watches me from afar. It's those that watch you that also judge you when you try something new or follow a passion of yours. I pray these people find the courage to follow their own dreams.

A year from now I'm sure life will have done a 180 again. And for that I am grateful. I will continue to fill my own cup, make lasting friendships, and enjoy this single era I am in.