Him

Starting out this summer I had absolutely no intentions of catching feelings for a guy. If anything, I was on a roll hating all men. My mantra was "Boys Lie". But like they say, you always find someone you really like at the most unexpected times. And that is what happened. About a month and a half ago I met a guy who I've actually ironically gone to school with since middle school. We never really talked before and it was by luck that we met. As soon as we started talking though we had a connection. At first I tried as hard as I could to deny it. How could I let myself catch feelings this summer right before I move away forever?? But it was so hard. He wanted to hangout all the time and I wanted to push him away so I wouldn't get hurt. The pull towards him was undeniable though and we decided to take the risk of spending the rest of the summer together even if we might be hurt in the end. I trust him like no one else and we've barely known each other for long. It's weird. I've never actually felt so strongly about someone. Like all I want to do is make him happy. Seeing him smile makes my day and being with him makes me feel complete. It's as if we knew each other in a past life or like our souls had split and have now found each other and so have found harmony. I used to dream about a guy like him who actually treats me right but never thought I'd be lucky enough to find him. I always thought all these feelings were bullshit before I have now experienced them. Leaving him at the end of the summer may be my hardest goodbye. It is unfathomable at the moment. But from the start we never had enough time and we knew it. I never knew how difficult it would be to fight against time until now. I have also fought with myself for weeks about if this was all worth it? Now I know it was. We both had a purpose for each others lives. I saved him. He taught me my worth and how to love. We were strangers no more than two months ago and now I fear the possibility of someday returning back to strangers. But deep down for some reason I feel like this won't be the end of our story. Maybe we'll end up like Indy Blue and Jackson. One day, after we've lived a little and grown a little, he'll visit me in LA or we'll bump into each other somewhere in the world and by some accident our lives change forever but forever will finally be ours.